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Time:09:20 pm
hi livejournal,

i keep forgetting about you but please don't take it the wrong way; i've just been really busy... i got a new job, a career even! and this takes up most of my hours throughout the week. it's funny that as a lost 20-something, you strive to get your feet off the ground and once it happens, you think, "that's it? well that was easy. no big deal" yeah. i take most things for granted it seems.

anyway, so what's new with me, you ask? many things. i'm too lazy to see where i last left off so i'll share what comes to mind.




there was diego. we dated for a while. it was okay, he was nice and all but there was no spark. we slept together, of course. his ex went to the hospital in an attempt to off herself and well, that ended that. a typical modern love story, wouldn't you say?




along came todd, my heart, my school girl crush. he fought for our "friendship". a confused soul who is torn between the girl he is sleeping with and me, "someone who is more legit for him". what a mess. pick one. and if you're sitting on the fence then let me make it easy for you and walk away. he says it doesn't have to be this way. he says im far too testy. i get irritated by stuff he does, well yeah, don't piss me off then. also, it's far easier to be "testy" when there is no option for affection. especially with someone else in the picture. yeah? yeah.

k, im lazy.

bye!
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Time:11:53 am
Hi livejournal, i forgot to give you some attention for awhile but now having a week off work with finally some time for myself, i'm back and i hope you can forgive me for not catching up with you sooner...

so what can i tell you? what's gone on in my life over the past year or so? let's see:



i broke up with marco, i know right? everyone thought we were so strong, and towards the end, it wasn't that things started getting bad, they became less... i dunno, magical... our differences were highlighted and really, the only thing we had in common was eachother... we maintain no contact, friendship is out the door, not cause it can't happen but because i don't want it, don't need it... anyway... there was that.



i moved out on my own finally which was a huge feat seeing as i was dragging my feet to commit to the entire idea of it.. i'm located uptown, a short subway ride to major spots like my favourite shops and bars and just one subway line down from work... the area is safe and so far, it's been good to me...



my dear sweet puss, my heart, my love, passed away on the 20th of september this year... we said goodbye with a proper buddhist ceremony and for 49 days, i went straight vegetarian to honour her journey after death... on her last night here, i sat with her trying not to cry, singing songs like "my favourite things" from the sound of music soundtrack and drew a simple bird and moon on my wrist (yknow, "wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings...") and traced over it straight for the next month and half... on saturday, i hit up passage and made the doodle permanent...



i'm crushing hard on this new kid right here and marco's friend no less... we've gone out a couple times... he's super courteous, he's driven to my place in the boondocks of yonge and eglinton, writes nice things and introduced me to "this american life" which i can't get enough of these days... but we'll see, although they aren't really friends, we met through my ex which makes things a bit weird, no?.. there are other things but sharing it would only tarnish the magic...

anyway livejournal, i hope you're okay with this... and if not, i'll be back... hope you're well.
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Time:08:47 pm


So in order to save myself from any rash-doings tonight, i have shut off the cell, put on the jammies, pulled out the wine, the girly mags, the pirated dvds and im staying in...

note to self: never drink a bottle of wine on an empty stomach... and if it happens again, walk away from the ex...

what have i done???




i wish to fly away like my homie here.

on an aside, wtf is up with bill o'reilly??? what a fuckin prick.
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Subject:barfy
Time:08:17 pm
i went home early from work... took a personal day...

i think im on the verge of a breakup...
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Time:09:39 pm
I took a personal day from work and went to see the Dalai Lama... He spoke for 2 hours straight on the art of happiness and it was great... He said his one wish would be to end animal cruelty and if we were all a little less suspicious of others and more confident in ourselves, the world will become a better place... He said a lot of uplifting things and cracked a few jokes... A couple behind me were eating a bag of chips or something and all I wanted to do was take their bag and throw it across the skydome :)
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Time:12:12 am
do i want to be with him??? most of me says yes... YES YES!!! he's amazing!!! he's great!!! he's everything you could ever ask for!!! he's funny, considerate, sweet, awesome, amazing and great... so what's not to love???

he has baggage, he doesnt plan for the future, he has lil faith in much, he drinks...

can i be with someone like this??? knowing this... is this an indicator to break free... find something better... someone more solid, more secure... more into me... who wont drink anymore as a result of an ex...

what do i do??? i love him... but i love me more... i love him and wish he could plan to be with me... that his outlook on life wasnt so bleak... because of an episode from his past...

what do i do.
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Subject:dfasdf
Time:05:59 pm
yknow when you move away for school and come back and run into old schoolmates who never left and are still running with their same circle or doing the same thing??? im starting to feel like that and it's driving me nuts...

i need to work again so i can get out of this suburban hell before it turns me into suburban trash.

well, after ei cuts me off.
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Subject:hottie mcbottie
Time:01:33 pm
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= sitting on my arse + drinking beer at night for the past 4 months = OW OW!!!

summer diet back in effect!

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some meathead argos football player found my myspace and won't leave me alone... i think he wants to be my myspace bf... HA HA!!! fuck, i love that site...
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Time:09:36 am
So i went out on a date last night with a coworker... anyway, after last night's experience, i have learned never to accept an invitation for dinner from a coworker when romantic interests are involved...

anyway, the night started off quite right... i met up with jeannie beforehand and guzzled a pitcher before meeting up with him at the restaurant... i was just at the right level of sloshy -- enough to keep my composure yet not care too much about what was going on...

how did i become such a judgmental shallow bitch tit??? his outfit was horrible... i cringed everytime he spoke because he was so loud and at one point, i excused myself to go to the toilet and called mandana to come and rescue me...

so i get back to the table, the phone rings, mandana whispers "put the phone away from your ear" and starts screaming and freaking out... i made up a lie that she just got stood up and that if he didn't mind, she'd be joining us... "she's one of my more emotional friends" i warned him...

i owe that girl my life... she stormed into that restaurant and created a scene of all scenes... HAHA... "why dont we go for a pitcher and you can tell us all about this" he offered... "do i LOOK like a drink beer?!?!" she snapped... awww... i got mandana, the most mature and well brought up girl i know to cuss and be a bitch...

we walked him to a the subway and then ran to the bar and split a pitcher laughing that we'll never be able to show our faces in big sushi on bloor ever again...

ow ow ow!
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Time:07:38 am
lust turns acquaintances into psychos...

*sigh*
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